I seem to have lost my blogging dedication. My thoughts have a tendency to be either entirely banal and uninteresting to anyone but me, or better kept to myself.

Perhaps I can get my focus back, at some point. My posts have been sparse as of late, and not terribly interesting, either.

  posted by Matthew @ 2:03 AM

 
I'm doing some interesting (well, to me) data analysis of the movie vote breakdowns on imdb.com - did you know that if you click on the stars for any movie, it gives you an age and gender breakdown of who voted how? It's really pretty interesting. For example, something like five times as many men as women voted for Master and Commander: The Far Side of the World, but their weighted average was identical.

I'm into that boring, pointless stuff. So there.

  posted by Matthew @ 3:11 PM

 
Peggy and I were discussing earlier today what consequences would follow if we were to switch bodies, Freaky Friday style. She said that she would go shopping to get me some new clothes and get me a new haircut, which would in all likelihood lead to her getting hit on by other guys (she likes the girly boys, so she imagines that's how she would get me to look) and she would probably forget to turn them down.

I, on the other hand, were I suddenly to find myself in Peggy's body, would lock myself in her room and play with my new boobs all day.

...

So it's probably just as well that this doesn't happen, for all involved.

  posted by Matthew @ 1:14 AM

 
Of the imdb.com Top 250 films list, I've seen 90% of the first twenty films. The two I haven't seen are the Hitchcock ones (I need to get on that) and really, I don't remember most of Godfather II or Schindler's List, but I have seen them.

Is it a bad thing that I envy Citizen Kane? Sure, he doesn't have any kind of real love or emotional fulfillment, but man is he ever rolling in the benjamins. I'm growing more and more skeptical of my chances at real love or emotional fulfillment myself, so it'd be nice at least to spend my time wallowing and moping in a place like Xanadu.

  posted by Matthew @ 10:10 PM

 
I've got lyrics running through my head like crazy, tonight.

Aimme Mann, Build That Wall - "How could anyone ever fight it? / Who could ever expect to fight it when she / Builds that wall / Maybe it's one where time will tell / Maybe it's one where it's just faretheewell."

Dar Williams, Another Mystery - "I could cut you off with a shoulder of stone / Smoke all night and leave the party alone / Screw myself with an inscrutable pout / But I just want you to come figure me out / I don't want to be another mystery oh no / I don't want to see who's looking at me oh no / I want to be the one to feel the sun oh oh / So if you want to see the world with me let's go."

Warren Zevon, Splendid Isolation - "I want to live alone in the desert / I want to be like Georgia O'Keefe / I want to live on the Upper East Side / And never go down in the street / Splendid Isolation / I don't need no one / Splendid Isolation / Don't want to wake up with no one beside me / Don't want to take up with nobody new / Don't want nobody coming by without calling first / Don't want nothing to do with you."

Billy Joel, And So It Goes - "In every heart there is a room / A sanctuary safe and strong / To heal the wounds from lovers past / Until a new one comes along / I spoke to you in cautious tones / You answered me with no pretense / And still I feel I said too much / My silence is my self defense / And every time I've held a rose / It seems I only felt the thorns / And so it goes, and so it goes / And so will you soon I suppose."

Conflicting emotions, surely. Unfortunately, the two musicians who I appreciate to a much greater degree are on the side I do not hope to win out, in the end. That probably isn't the way to make the decision, though.




  posted by Matthew @ 3:36 AM

 
The question: Will I ever learn to not put pizza that I just got out of a 450 degree oven into my mouth, thus burning myself painfully?

The answer: No.

  posted by Matthew @ 6:06 PM

 
To follow up my previous blog entry: it doesn't take a lot of time with me to get past the bad first impression, I don't think. It varies, depending on the situation.

More random observations: I make a much better "guy-friend" than I would a boyfriend.

Peggy rocks. She gave me the recipe and detailed instructions (as well as helping me pick out and purchase the ingredients) for this delicious noodley chickeny thing that I just gorged myself on. I didn't know how much it would make, so I ended up making like three bowls of the stuff, even though I've only been able to eat two. Maybe I'll get my second wind, soon. She's holding my hand in such a nice way as I cross the threshold into actual cooking! She roxxorz.

Oof. I am so full of chicken and noodles.

I like my classes this semester. Particularly my journalism film class, because we watch movies (lots of really good ones) and of the thirteen students in the class, I am the only male. Tell me that doesn't rock.



  posted by Matthew @ 8:40 PM